11.07.2024 Cognitive existence

i feel i can’t control how (quantitively) cognitively i exist. i think to think, i think to feel (emotionally and physically), i think to learn, i think to move, i think to respond, i think to create. Thinking seems to be my default and ultimate response to existence / way of existing. This the type of fragment i am (becoming). How long will it take me to realize, accept and embrace it fully? Or might it change?